getting worst

weeeeell reader, long time no see ya kita haha.

ga kerasa sekarang gue udah lulus SMA, lumayan nilainya 45,80 :) bangga sih sebenernya cuma emang ada hal yang bikin gue ga bangga sama diri sendiri yang ga bisa gue sebutin disini. cita-cita gue malah jadi ancur gara-gara salah langkah kaya gini ggrrrrr biar tuh penipu Allah yang bales deh kesel banget abisnyaaaaa -____-"

i feel bad from day to day, too much alcohol too much party too much lying too much xanax, happyfive, doom, neken, then too much ciggy haaaaaah what the hell i did? i know it can bring me happiness at the moment but not forever. seriously i had been enjoy it. everywhere i go, i used to went to club or at least bar. spent alot of money to do that worst thing, bought it then enjoy it like a bitches with her "toy"

FYI guys, im not as tough as you see. but i can hiding my sorrow, mad, loneliness from all of you. i promise to my self and my lovely friends i MUST move on from this situation. FUCKIN SITUATION!!! hopefully God blessing me, Amiiiiiin

watch out for the people you know or not, they can give you "something" that you never know when you careless. this is the reaction when they give you "something" :

xanax : pil penenang yang kalo di minum bikin lo "fly"
happyfive : lo mau ada masalah apa juga bawaannya ketawa-ketawa aja kaya orang gila -_-
doom : same w/ xanax but stronger
insto : careful ladies, it can make you horny and lost your mind
neken : ekstasi but not addictive
abilify : make you weaaaaak (drugs for autism-hyperactive)

i love you, so i dont want you to be like stupid. i know you can help me to stop it. thank you fellas